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That's right folks, it is Donnie Darko Month! For those of you who haven't seen Donnie Darko, get up right now and go to Blockbuster, get the movie (and maybe, possibly some Apple Cider) and watch it, as soon as possible!!! The movie has an essential theme of overcoming your fear of death and also of loneliness. Donnie mentions that 'everyone dies alone' So loneliness and death could even go hand in hand. I've always thought that I would never be afraid of death because there is nothing to fear, once your dead you can finally be with God...but when I was faced with death I realized that I do fear death. I fear the unknown, even if the unknown will be with God. So as you embrace the glorious month of Donnie Darko, also remember all of the different obstacles that you can overcome with a little bit of motivation, a few friends, and of course the Almighty One.

With much thought and appreciation for music, I am proud to announce the Music Artist of the Week:

Muse

Muse just came out with a new album 'The Resistance' which has a lot of political references in it and a great quote for this blog.

"If you could flick a switch and open your third eye, You'd see that We should never be afraid to die"-from the song "Uprising" which was also featured on the political radio station NPR.

Start Over

A house of cards, the simple heart is not a place to dwell now you have a cake don't hesitate

c'mon just do it, c'mon just do it. Put it in your mouth there is only now. Tomorrow has to wait,

but no theres no backing out this is gonna be reality you can never dream it down.

I have no way of telling the two apart.

Well I made amends in the general sense the devils in the details.

and I know the cause and I wanna stop but I can't do it i just can't do it. There was love I meant there were accidents so tell me which is which cause I just can't work it out, but for memory and clarity i better write it down. I have no way of knowing the truth of time dissolved.

I put the past into the ground, I saw the future as a cloud, if theres no time to turn around but I'm going to. Its just one day i fell asleep and now a day i'm not a dream.

I am the first one i decieve if i make myself believe,

the rest is easy.

-Sometimes I express myself best from lyrics of other songs. This song is currently on repeat on itunes which tells me something about myself. There's something that I am going to change and I'm using this song to help me do it.

Open Your Heart...

In all of this world there is only one person who is ultimately faithful,

reliable and dependable. Someone that we can entirely put our trust into.

That reliable, trustworthy being is God. I have been going through everyday

trying to find something to make me happy,

make me fond,

make me proud,

make me complete.

But these substitutes of ultimate love are unstable. They eventually grow distant.

They will eventually return to the ground from which they were made.

That is why I am putting my all and everything into God. He is the one who will

always be there, He is with me even now. Every second of the day He is by my side, watching me,

guiding me, and encouraging me to continue this life.

"But happy are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the Lord their God. He is the one who made heaven and earth, the sea and everything in them. He is the one who keeps ever promise forever..." Psalm 146:5-6

Also the musical artist of the week is SANTOGOLD! (ay ay ay ayy)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SIRpKa5ZMA

Art provided by: Carlton Vanskiver (my man)

Here Comes the Sunrise

Everything has been going great in the past few weeks because I have, by the work of God, gotten back into school and I get to run this season. God opened up so many doors for this to happen and I am very happy about it. But this time that I am going through right now has been tough. I have been with Emma constantly for the past six months and I came back home by myself last week. So needless to say, I feel alone and that something is missing. My bank account keeps going negative too, so I've been job hunting every day and I've always hated job hunting. Then a few days ago, I was feeling very down and depressed when I decided to pick up the guitar and learn a new song. My little brother gave me a Brandon Heath CD so I decided to pick a random song and I picked "Sunrise" without even looking at the lyrics. Then as I was going through the lyrics I realized that this song was truly encouraging me, it was somehow putting a smile on my face. God has been speaking to me more and more lately and He is my sunrise.

I may be paranoid, but not an android

Paranoid Android by Radiohead.

Listen to it.

Feel it.

Love it.

Pass it on.

I love this song for so many reasons. To start off, of course those who know me know that I love Radiohead so the fact that it is by radiohead is a pretty big deal! Point number two, the lyrics are thought provoking, calming, motivating and gve me that feeling of love for music. I also very much like the guitar parts in this song, i'm trying to learn it for my boyfriend and that has made me really appreciate the guitar part. I also love the different moods this song goes through, just like how I can go from upset to, happy to sad to loving to concerned and apathetic in a matter of 6:23. 

Amen and amen

"A Glass Can Only Spill What it Contains"

"What new mystery is this? In Overflowing Emptiness, the invisible is seen among the shadows and the mist, before my doubting eyes, the infinite appears in time, the unquestionable is questioned but makes no reply" -mewithoutYou

The lyrics of this song (and almost every other mewithoutYou song) pierce deeply into my thoughts. I hear so many things when I hear these lyrics. I hear that when I am feeling empty I also feel like I'm about to explode with so much emptiness that it just fills me and eats me up inside. I hear that if you look hard enough for the invisible things in life you will see them, but you will not believe that you saw them. I have been looking for God all my life and when I see him among the "shadows and the mist" I doubt it with all my heart, and think that it wouldn't be that easy to see after looking so hard. I hear that I am asking God about the wrong things and that is why I am hearing no reply. 

One Saturday Morning

Emma and I have been awake for quite some time now. 

We cleaned our room so, now it is partly clean which is fantastic! 

But then we ended up watching a few movies, Semi-Pro and Hound Dog.  

Turns out the time slipped by and it was then 9:00 so we are watching some nice saturday morning cartoons!

 Full day ahead, time to house sit for my mom! YES!